Jamie, you refuse to believe the truth.
Tell me, why would Jesus tell us to seek him if we cannot do that?
Matthew 7:7
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
I have sought Him and He has drawn me to Himself a long time ago and His Spirit has convicted me to place my faith, my trust in Him and to turn away from sin and follow Him, on a path of growing intimacy with Him, knowledge of Him, faith in Him, obedience to the Holy Spirit. His grace vital every step of the way. Dependence upon Him an absolute must!
"But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in your weakness." Therefore I will boast all the gladly of my weakness, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. ... For when I am weak then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
"Let me ask you only this: Did you receive the Spirit by works of the law or by hearing with faith? Are you so foolish? Having begun by the Spirit, are you now being perfected by the flesh?" Galatians 3:2-3
The Spirit is received by Grace and faith and by Him we, "put to death the deeds of the body"(Romans 8:13).
We are called to obey God and love. We love by Him, through Him, for Him, because He first loved us; by His Agape love, by His Spirit.
"for God gave us not a spirit of fear, but of power and love and self control." 2 Timothy 1:7
"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self control; against such things there is no law." Galatians 5:22-23
We do have an obligation to Him, to please His Spirit, to love, to do good. It is through Him through and through.
"For the one who sows to His own flesh Will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life. And let us not grow weary in doing good, for in good season we will reap if we do not give up." Galatians 6:8-9
Father I pray that everyone that reads these words is moved by you, for their need of You and Your love, and Your Son Jesus, and Your Holy Spirit. Help us surrender to You, to allow Yourself to shine through us in love. It is only by Your love and Grace and the precious blood of Jesus that this is possible. We give You all the glory, in Jesus name Amen!