I am a Christian.
Today is Sunday, April 1, 2018
I do not understand what this thread is for.
I do not know how to answer you as I understand that you are a Christian. I live in the United States of America as I believe you do.
I grew up Christian. I am a Jew, of Israel. I believe Yeshua to be the Messiah. I am Torah and Sabbath Observant. I am a proselyte and a convert to Israel and Judaism. The people and nation of Israel (Am Yisrael) comes before Judaism and whether it is a religion or not. We are a people.
I am a Citizen of the United States of America. I would like to become a Rabbi and the President of the United States of America. I would also like to make aliyah. I do not know what will happen.
You are a woman. As a general rule I do not talk to women. I do not know if you know the answer to my question or how you can help. Just knowing the truth doesn't change people but learning the truth does as it changes me or whoever does, even as it can change you. You already know a great many things.
I do not like learning or being exposed to error, what is false, evil, etc....
In my life I am safe in my room but doing battle, without war, from my room. A spiritual battle. I am not into psychology. I have a computer, books, and I am safe here where I live. Currently I am celebrating the feast of unleavened bread. I have my matzah. Tonight was count 2 of the omer. It is the third day of the feast of unleavened bread. I do not know if you are a Jew or interested in Jewish things. I encourage you to study and only ask questions if you want to. I believe that you are a woman who can study the Torah, but I do not know if this is because you have demonstrated an aptitude for doing so.
The help I have needed comes in part with expressing that I need help. But with man's law and with God's Law I am Torah Observant and I desire to see others the same and those who transgress God's Law should be corrected or punished. If we live according to God's Law, it is life to us, even as there is a New Covenant.
Shalom. Peace to you.
Jacob