Dear Hedshaker,
It is not your decision to make. It all rests on what Jesus thinks of you. Now, you would need to sin worse than just not believing in Him. So don't be troubled. You probably won't get to go to heaven this time around. But there is a second death (second chance). See Rev. 20:13. That means that you will sleep for 1,000 years and then be born again and be given another chance at life to correct the mistakes you made in the previous life. See Rev. 20:5,6. Now, you shouldn't say, 'up yours,' considering you don't know the whole situation. No big whoop to me. I am very loving and extremely forgiving. Little you say would bother me after all I have been through. Hedshaker, don't be so up in arms about the situation. I have prayed for you, whether you want me to or not. I've also prayed for the atheists on this TOL site. Of course, Alwight too! I usually pray for you all on TOL twice every week on my knees at my bedside. You people are decent, loving, caring people, so I am happy to have you for friends. You'll notice it is written, "And 'death' and 'hell' will give up all who are in them, and they shall all be judged according to the Book of Life from the foundation of the world." That means even certain people who have been in hell will still make it to heaven. Their crimes are nothing compared to the crimes others do during these days and in the days to come. Once Jesus returns, you will believe in Him. And since you treat people quite well, you will be just fine, Buddy! Now, there are those like Hitler and Mussolini who will be going to the Lake of Fire. Their sins were too grievous.