That's why I talked to her the way I did. I know that I was never happy when I lived in CA (at least after my grandmother passed away when I was 15). Sure, there were people who tried to make me happy (from church mostly). But, I always felt that I belonged somewhere else. Before Steve (my dh) passed away, we planned on moving to Wyoming when he retired. He was going to open a security business. But, we would have had to wait until around 2010 for him to retire. He passed away in 1999. A homeschooling friend of mine in Indiana asked me to come visit her and her family in Indiana after the funeral. So, I did. I absolutely loved it here!