You need to know violence is not love. Your mother did not make it worse. Your father did not control himself. He is the culprit.
If your mother did not try to protect her children, she is not fit to be a mother. she did the right thing, brother.
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A mother that gets between her husband and her children forget one very important thing. Them are his children to. And you might to your ideas out on God. Let me know how that comes out.
Heb 12:6-12
6 For whom the Lord loves He chastens, and scourges every son whom He receives."
7 If you endure chastening, God deals with you as with sons; for what son is there whom a father does not chasten?
8 But if you are without chastening, of which all have become partakers, then you are illegitimate and not sons.
9 Furthermore, we have had human fathers who corrected us, and we paid them respect. Shall we not much more readily be in subjection to the Father of spirits and live?
10 For they indeed for a few days chastened us as seemed best to them, but He for our profit, that we may be partakers of His holiness.
11 Now no chastening seems to be joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.
12 Therefore strengthen the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees,
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