zoo22
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Actually, no. That's the thing; I didn't actually believe that was right. I forced myself to believe it because the pastor said it was true. But I kept reasoning with myself because it ran contrary to what I knew the Bible to say. At the age of 17, five years before joining TOL and becoming OV, I decided that God, in His omnipotence, had chosen to be ignorant of the specifics of individuals' decisions for, or against, Jesus Christ. Else wise Christ dying for us all was in vain, and futile; rather if He did know then it would only make sense for Him to only do this for those whom He knew would accept. And since the Bible showed me that God was not the type to reject anyone, but rather He lets them reject Him, I saw no other possibility.
You'd said, "I used to believe God was omni-aware, though I never used such a term; I believed it for twenty years. Seven years ago I realized I was reading that idea into all of the verses I used to support it."
But you meant you didn't believe for twenty years that God was 'omni-aware.'"
I definitely can understand not putting things into words correctly. Been grappling with that myself recently. Also grappling with with changes in what I believe.