That is true.
You say you are "forced" to take medication that makes you gain weight? For what purpose? Are you sure it's absolutely necessary? I gained 70lbs with antidepressants and antipsychotics. It's no fun and I'm just about convinced it affects the brain forever. It's very difficult to get rid of it after the fact, too. So I do realize that happens. I just wonder about being "forced" to take medication. Maybe you doctors are wrong and it isn't absolutely necessary?
I have pain that the doctors call tactile hallucinations, but really it feels like I am being torchured by electricty moving thru my body.Tourture which seems to tell me what to do or not do. I am scratching myself as I type this. I am suprised that I am even able to communicate right now cause usually I have alot of problems doing the simplest of things. Even watching tv is a miracle.
It wasn't always like this. It started back in 06 when I was in the hospital; I felt a warm sensation in my stomach like I was being cooked from the inside. For days I couldn't bathe or wash my hands because of the metal in the water. When my family gave me change to get something to drink from the drink machine, I experienced a sharp pain in my hands. As soon as I got rid of the coins in my hand, the pain went away.
If I stop taking the meds which I can't (I am on a shot), I would go days without sleep, I would be agitated and anxious and would probably want to hurt myself or someone else or do something illegal.
With the medicine I sometimes have gone days without sleep because of the pain and I would get confused because of the stimulation the pain causes. I am very analytical so it is hard for me not to over analyze the pain.
The doctors don't know what to do. I go thu many med changes because the doctors don't listen to me when I say the pain has a mind of its own, it doesn't go away with medicine and it's not psychosomatic.