It's a good thing the apostle Paul wasn't like you, if he was he would have kept the revelations given him by Christ Jesus a secret. to keep them from reaching the hellbound massesThe revelation of and the limited exposure to the Holiness of Elohim is restricted to the regenerate and hidden from the degenerate, from hypocrites, false brethren and most certainly false teachers.
No hypocrite or false professor could give an account of the experience any more than he can give an account of conversion and regeneration.