Both, please.
TOL provides an actual sig function.
I dislike talking too directly about myself, but out of respect I will be concise.
I am a Jew by blood and was born under the Law.
The duality of ritual and focus on Law was in contrast to my observation that I transgressed the Law.
The Tanakh was my guide.
When I turned 18 I left the law and essentially turned away from God.
Secretly, I was at war about this, as I Loved God.
I searched and even denounced God.
I searched history, religion of all types and science.
I even studied many works from theological heroes of the past.
I decided to buy a 66 book Bible and as I had heard, the gospel and the writings of Paul were an explanation to why I felt at war with myself and God internally.
Major sin crippled my life, and I was forced to look at Jesus as my only hope for the first time in my life.
I was open with Jesus for my need for Him, and acknowledged that there was ample evidence that He was HaShem, EloHim, YHWH....
Suddenly, my eyes were off of me, and I was greatful to He.
I began to claim Him in my darkest times and His mercy made my heart new!
My compacity to Love grew.
I am never perfect as He, but He Loves me anyways.
He taught me to even Love the most difficult person for me to Love. Myself.
I see Hope in Him.
Faith in Jesus restored my life!
I now Love ALL, but not anywhere near as well as He.
I see new glory in Jesus every time I read His parables, and great hope for humanity, as He Loves All more than any ever could.
I now am a new person, because of His transforming Love.
I'm no saint without His Grace to hide under, but I have a debt of Love I am all to greatful to never be able to repay, but try anyways.
As in, I proclaim His Love to all, and find it painful when people claim His Love, but limit the power of His sacrifice alone.
The Spirit does the rest.
We may not be sinless and perfect here, but I have His promise and grace, and commission to Love as He Loves.
This is the genuine meaning of my life now.
He has blessed me beyond compare, in reference to my life.
Not money, but Love that never ceases.
That is the best I can express an answer without pointing toodirectly to me.
Signature: "If I've offended you, that's me getting in the way of Jesus. If you search the Scriptures open to only the guidance of God's Spirit to Theologically level me..... I've succeeded."