Jamie Gigliotti
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I have never been a hateful person, even through my 17 years of agnosticism. I have a very empathetic nature towards others even when things are not going so well for me. But as a younger agnostic I did feel a certain amount of futility. Nowadays I can switch back and forth from a theistic perspective and an agnostic perspective and still not lose sight of what is important. Theism might have just been a tool for me to reach that, but again it is what it is. Keep in mind I have studied many religions as well.
How the 5 major religions spread.
I have never thought of myself as hateful either and I have always desired to be a good person. Without wanting to go into specifics here. I was wronged severely by several people. I was able to forgive and love with God's help one individual and for a time and then I was wronged in a very painful way. My pain was immense... I was furious with God, foolishly as well. I pushed him away completely and revenge crossed my mind many times. The darkness overtook me literally, I was overcome by anxiety, anger, hurt, despair. Me and my family suffered immensly. Jesus said 'the truth shall set you free' and it wasn't until after a year of literal Hell did I finally turn to Him again and found freedom from those chains that were literally killing me. Me trusting him and His loving presence and His way of love have brought me the peace my heart has always desired.