(I'm pretty long winded so if you want a spiel, keep reading, or if you like short, skip on down)
Over the past couple of years, since I left high school, I've been battling my views on religion and Christianity. Just found this place and I'm kind of interested if this is the forum to express my views and questions in. I was raised in a relaxed-catholic home (went to church at Easter and the such), but I was sent to a catholic school. Learned all the bible stories, went to bi-weekly mass, took religion courses, etc...
I was drawn to the religion courses because of the interesting and intelligent teachers that taught the religion class, but the actual studies left me jaded. I had a pretty alright relationship with God and wasn't devote by any means, but considered myself a Christian.
But everyday I'd go to religion class, I'd learn of all the tragedies and atrocities every religion has committed. Historically, I've still seen extremely little good it's brought the world and its politics. Every sides had its troubles, but I just chocked it up as man's fault and not God's (to begin with of course). But it caused me to question a lot of the decisions the church has made, which made me question the logic it was made upon, and the the reasons that logic presented, then the ideals in which gave birth to the logic.
Long story short, I became a questioner, and I'm realizing not only does religion not have any good answers, but the answers it has are truly bad ones.
But that is something I kind of want to change. With all of these questions I have, and only hearing dumb or horrible answers, I'm getting angry with everyone. Quick to start arguments, unhappy with life, and all around pissed off at people. I'm smart enough to see no coincidences.
So in case you guys were all tl/dr, simply put, I'm a pissed off ex-catholic turned atheist. But the title "atheist" has a silver lining. While I do consider myself off the fence and drifting away from the idea of any God, I've always kept that fence in eye sight, ready to jump back onto it or over it again in case someone changes it.
And so I'm here to say hello, and to not take too much offense to my questions (unless of course I mean to offend. Ridicule is the only weapon which can be used against unintelligible propositions).