Sonnet
New member
I met a guy on the old BBC christian forum which is now closed down. He'd been brought up in a "Christian Home" and with youthful zeal has accepted everything he was taught. He went Bible College and worked as an evangelist and then a pastor. Then something happened in his life that caused him to pause and equate the circumstance in view of all he had professed and lived by. His conclusion was that Elohim did not exist, because if He did, He could never have allowed...whatever, to occur.
He dedicated his time to trying to convince people like me that what I trusted in was futile. He even opened a website dedicated to his new found zeal.
I sense the same deceptive spirit at work in you. He was far more honest than you, but he would never admit to what had happened...
Interesting but best to stick to the op.