You'll never be able to find the evidence you need from the English language . Only the Greek texts and someone who knows how to read them can show you the evidence your looking for .
I've studied under a Stanford level Dr. Of theology for 32 years . Greek words are very specific . He is fluent in all the ancient texts , and owns the largest collection of biblical manuscripts in private hands behind the Vatican .
The Greek specifically teaches that God the Father , the Son , and the Holy Spirit , are one entity , and 3 separate entities , at the same time all the time . Just like Jesus was 100% God and 100% man at the same time , all the time . This is what one needs to accept about Christianity going out the gate .
These are just the beginning of many of the examples of God's paradoxical framework of understanding that the Greek specifically teaches.
It would take Him 6 months just to teach his students how to correctly understand what a paradox is , and they were basically at a genius level. So I don't expect any agreement in just one post .
This is the problem with being self taught . There are really important pegs that need to be established in the mind to correctly understanding Scripture.
If you try to discern on your own , without one of the gifted ministers , in English , you'll find yourself on either side of the paradoxical pole , throwing darts at the other side .
