You are lost in your own little dream world of "Churchianity".
YOU are NOT the apostle of the gentiles, Paul is.
YOU didn't meet the Lord Jesus Christ the way that Paul did.
YOU did NOT write scripture. Paul did.
YOU are so very ignorant of the DETAILS revealed in the Bible.
YOU babble on and on about YOUR confused "understanding".
YOU divert attention away from FACTS that bust your silly story.
Rom 11:13 (AKJV/PCE)
(11:13) For I speak to you Gentiles, inasmuch as I am the apostle of the Gentiles, I magnify mine office:
YOU belittle the APOSTLE that the LORD Jesus Christ chose.