LightSon
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Originally posted by Singerian
I was once a Christian, too. But I was never really satisfied with myself until I decided to abandon Christianity in favor of altruism. That's the problem with Christianity. It's not about what's best for all sentience. It's about what's best for God. If accepting God happens to benefit all sentience, that's simply a latent effect. The primary purpose is to live for Him. It's a selfish way of living. It's just a different self you're living for.
Well that is just sad, Sing.
I'm compelled to echo in passing that
"They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, they would no doubt have continued with us: but they went out, that they might be made manifest that they were not all of us." 1st John 2:19.
Altruism? That's a poor substitute for God, and that is an overstatement. You can make folks as comfortable and as pleasure oriented as possible, and in 70 years they'll all be dust. In your view, they will be dust for eons on into oblivion.
I accepted Christ when I was 10. I am now 42. The path has not been easy and I too have struggled to find satisfaction in God. I also struggle with depression allot. I will confess that I "gave up" for awhile to pursue hedonistic things. My faith dwindled and almost went out.
I think you are too smart for your own good. You seem to have above average logic, and are no doubt tortured by apparent contradictions in the Christian world view.
You have said some amazingly dark things. I have to wonder if you ever shudder on your bed at night as you ponder the eventuality of death and facing Him with whom we all have to do. One can continue to ignore the disease which ravages their body, but in the end, death will become reality.
Is there no light of God that you can see? Is there no spiritual truth that He has not slipped you that you can hang onto? Go there. Move towards the light. Who knows but what the Holy Spirit may be trying to draw you to God.
As I said, I enjoy a good sunset. The feelings of wonder and sublimity often sweep through me in a torrent. There is nothing so fulfilling as walking with God in those moments and expressing heartfelt gratitude to Him for providing the sunset, and for giving me the life and breath to experience it and for giving me friends and family to share it all with. Life is precious. It is sad to realize that this dimension in your life is dead - spiritually lifeless - you can't even understand what I'm saying.