Jesus was, though, Hebrews 12:2 (KJV), He looked forward to "the joy that was set before Him."
And since He knew beforehand, the question is whether or not He was clear with His disciples about what was going to happen, or if He was coy, or downright deceptive?
Maybe this is what I was thinking of. He did not want to be tortured and executed. But he was willing to do it to save the world.