SubjectJack
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Hello friends,
I'm very interested in theology so thought I'd try out a site like this to learn from people and give something back from all the books I have read. I do however have a long dark history, that of a nine year stint suffering schizophrenia. I mention it because it was so spiritually themed, I was involved in a battle between heaven and hell for years and went to a own personal hell so black and hard that I can barely believe I survived. I tell people that I experienced approximately 1000 days of constant waking nightmares, terror so black it makes my soul shiver to think about it even years later and had to listen to tourtre constantly for years whenever I sat to be quiet. This still goes on today, although it has lessened quite a bit and I am getting better! The only light in the darkness was God, who has helped me constantly through my experiences as have His angels. So if you believe in God and angels your on the right track.
However there are some things that I categorically reject in many of the mainstream religions doctrine, such as there ever being a God created hell. Your talking to someone who had visions of this place and heard it and felt it, but I believe that there is no such place ever for any man or woman ever. I believe this because I know the God I met would never do something so horrendous as to send someone to that place. People band the word around, believing in hell, saying you will go to hell if you don't do this or that like its a mild, small thing, but until you've felt the heat and heard the screams you cannot say that people deserve it or don't, you simply don't know enough about it. If you had had my experiences then you would believe that no man or woman ever goes there, it's just that bad!
So that's my main qualm with the main stream religion, and I have been guided to find a more spiritually focused path, that of the New Age doctrine. Teachings like "all there is is love", "we are all one" and "stillness speaks" have been proved to me as 100% true through my meditation practices. These are very useful teachings for spiritual development.
I'd love to get a few different perspectives on these dark experiences (it could all have been mental illness), from different theologies and ask people if you really saw hell would you honestly, honestly believe it to be justice?
I'm very interested in theology so thought I'd try out a site like this to learn from people and give something back from all the books I have read. I do however have a long dark history, that of a nine year stint suffering schizophrenia. I mention it because it was so spiritually themed, I was involved in a battle between heaven and hell for years and went to a own personal hell so black and hard that I can barely believe I survived. I tell people that I experienced approximately 1000 days of constant waking nightmares, terror so black it makes my soul shiver to think about it even years later and had to listen to tourtre constantly for years whenever I sat to be quiet. This still goes on today, although it has lessened quite a bit and I am getting better! The only light in the darkness was God, who has helped me constantly through my experiences as have His angels. So if you believe in God and angels your on the right track.
However there are some things that I categorically reject in many of the mainstream religions doctrine, such as there ever being a God created hell. Your talking to someone who had visions of this place and heard it and felt it, but I believe that there is no such place ever for any man or woman ever. I believe this because I know the God I met would never do something so horrendous as to send someone to that place. People band the word around, believing in hell, saying you will go to hell if you don't do this or that like its a mild, small thing, but until you've felt the heat and heard the screams you cannot say that people deserve it or don't, you simply don't know enough about it. If you had had my experiences then you would believe that no man or woman ever goes there, it's just that bad!
So that's my main qualm with the main stream religion, and I have been guided to find a more spiritually focused path, that of the New Age doctrine. Teachings like "all there is is love", "we are all one" and "stillness speaks" have been proved to me as 100% true through my meditation practices. These are very useful teachings for spiritual development.
I'd love to get a few different perspectives on these dark experiences (it could all have been mental illness), from different theologies and ask people if you really saw hell would you honestly, honestly believe it to be justice?
