On the Cross the Lord Jesus experience both a spiritual death and a physical death. in the Scriptures the word "blood" is used symbolically of both of those deaths. But you dent that his death on the Cross saved anyone:
You deny that the death of the Lord Jesus saves despite that the following verse is speaking about that death:
"Much more then, being now justified by his blood, we shall be saved from wrath through him" (Ro.5:9).
I don't judge your life but your teaching. And from what you say I cannot believe that you actually believe the saving gospel of grace, that believers are
"justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus" (Ro.3:24).
Here Peter speaks of that redemption:
"Forasmuch as ye know that ye were not redeemed with corruptible things, as silver and gold, from your vain conversation received by tradition from your fathers; But with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot" (1 Pet.1:18-19).
Your theology is a denial of the gospel of the grace of God. You do not have faith in His blood so you do not receive the benefits of his death:
"God presented Christ as a sacrifice of atonement, through the shedding of his blood—to be received by faith" (Ro.3:25).